Untamed

JB Tabuzo

‘Untamed’ series is my ode to those who constantly struggle with loss. 

‘It is about the fox who was deep love with his owner. Unlike cats and dogs, the fox is a wild animal no one dares to even come close or even think of taming. Eventually, there was a successful one who finally gets to love the fox. The bond was everything he can hope for, until eventually, it was time for the owner to leave. The fox finds himself suddenly lost from the loss. Being with his owner everyday was giving him so much high until one day there wasn’t. The fox wants to run after his owner but he  doesn’t know where or even how to run anymore. But hope still beats in his heart that maybe if he stays put, his owner can find him again.’

I use this parallelism to tell a lot about my story of loss without going much into detail ‘cause i think a lot of us deal with grief but never really talk about it openly. Most of the time, we deal with grief alone, hoping time would just magically make things alright again. 

I’m in the process myself of being untamed - of getting used to not having an owner, of losing a lover. I learn more recently that the pain of saying goodbye is  one thing, but dealing with the aftermath is far more painful. I’m learning to just let things be for now and soldier on the loss.

I share my fox to give hope - that the void left from being untamed means that there is room for new things to come (or even old things to return).